“Yes, ma’am.”
“Are you holding up all right?”
“I haven’t slept in three weeks,” I admitted. “So, honestly, no.”
Her eyes softened in a way that made me feel as though she already knew things about me that I had never told her.
“You brought all five children with you?”
“I couldn’t leave them anywhere,” I said. “They’ve already been left too many times.”
She nodded slowly, as if the sentence carried real weight.
Then, she glanced at the children, and I saw her lips tighten before she moved on.
I turned back to them.
Lila, who was no more than three, pressed her forehead against Eli’s shoulder.
The twins, who were barely four, held hands as though their fingers had been sewn together.
The youngest, still wearing a padded jacket two sizes too big, sat on Eli’s lap and gripped a stuffed rabbit that was missing one ear.
Three weeks earlier, I had not known any of them.
I had been in my workshop, sanding a table for a client in the next town while listening to the radio.
Then, I saw their faces on the emergency placement registry, and something old and buried in my chest tightened so painfully that I could hardly breathe.
I emptied my savings account that same night.
“Sir?” Eli looked at me, and his voice was barely a whisper. “Are they going to take us to different houses?”
“Not if I can help it, buddy.”
“Do you promise?”
I opened my mouth, but no words came out.
I had never made a promise like that aloud in my entire life.
“I promise that I’m going to try harder than I’ve ever tried at anything.”
He nodded once, as though that answer was enough, and turned back to his sister.
Then, the bailiff stepped into the hallway and called our case number.
Diane, my attorney, pulled me into a small side room the moment the court recessed.
“They moved quickly, Carter,” she said. “They arranged everything overnight.”
“How quickly?”
“Three transport vans are scheduled for Friday. The children will be sent to three different counties.”
I set the folder of receipts on the table, but my hand did not want to release it.
Five days. That was all they were giving me.
“Diane, tell me the truth. What are my chances in there?”
“Honestly? They are slim. The judge does not usually approve single applicants, especially young applicants with no parenting experience.”
Before I could respond, the door opened, and Beverly, the senior caseworker, stepped inside with a clipboard.
“Carter, may I sit down?”
“Please.”
She sat and folded her hands in the practiced manner that social workers often used.
